Weeds

Recently I received quite a shock.

I got offended.

This took me by surprise as I thought I had come farther along in my healing than to get my feelings hurt.  I was also shocked to realize that I had actually been wearing my heart on my sleeve.

I vowed to myself not to tell anyone.

Of course I told someone, I told my mom !!!!!!!  Now, this was good and bad because my mom knows me and how I can get so she can talk me back to reality but she is also my mom so she was pretty ticked off too !!  It was scary wonderful that my mom was right on board with me – I’ll take her into battle any day of the week !!

Okay, back to reality.   The next morning on my drive to work my radio messed up so Pastor Chuck Swindoll fuzzed out and I turned it off.   I decided to take some time to talk to God about why I got upset.

Actually, I got embarrassed.  Anger is a secondary emotion  (remember this…it’s good stuff to know).  Meaning that when you get mad – it is really because there was a preceding emotion that made you uncomfortable so you simply get pissed so you don’t have to deal with whatever it was that hurt.

When I remembered this rationality I knew this was a God moment so I settled back and let the thoughts come………

I was embarrassed because I said something stupid in a group of better educated Christian people and I sounded like a stupid kid.  It was not anyone’s fault it was just a moment when it would have been better to keep my mouth shut (I’m still learning this).

So, as I was making peace with saying something stupid that no one even noticed (probably) I had an image flash through my mind.

I saw a grown man picking Dandelion weeds from a yard and I saw a child pick up a Dandelion and blow those seeds everywhere…….

That’s me………. in the organized religion world I am that child I will say the wrong thing, the simple thing, the stupid thing, the loving thing, the embarrassing thing….. I will say anything.

And God loves me anyway !!!!!!!!!!!!!!