To a Thousand Generations……..

Let me discuss something deep and dark here….been chewing on this lately.  I have friends that have lives that seemed to be “blessed” in areas that I just cannot get a “handle” on.  Seems like there is always a struggle.

One Step Forward.  Two Steps Back.

I’ve grown very close to one of you who recently told me that she knew of her ancestors serving the Lord and praying for their children and children’s children…..etc.   This sparked something deep within me.

You know how counselors always tell you to “break the cycle” whether it’s alcohol, abuse, divorce etc?  Well, that is actually Biblical.

5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments. Exodus 20: 5-6 (NIV)

I think this is Holy Spirit Wisdom here – if your family has a history of dysfunction YOU must be the one to

STAND UP & SAY STOP !

When I got divorced (from husband #1) I decided to become an atheist.  I felt that I was justified in my anger and my disbelief and I used scripture to back me up…

A brother offended is harder to be won than a strong city: and their contentions are like the bars of a castle.  Proverbs 18:19 (KJV)

While dating husband number two I told him – I may not look like it now, but deep down I am a Jesus Freak and one day He will call me back.  He won’t let me continue like this forever.  He told me that he was totally on board and wanted a Christian wife.

When I came back to the Lord I had so much bitterness and resentment BUT – I begged Him for Mercy

for my children.  The damage that I did and was still causing broke my heart and I could not control my anger but still through it all – I cried out for Mercy for my children.  I begged Him to break the cycle and for my children to be blessed.  I prayed for their future spouses.  All the while my second marriage was falling apart I cried out for my children.

There are many Old Testament examples of bad decisions causing damage but then God turning it around for good.

Best example (I use ALL the time) Rahab – who was a prostitute but was shown not only mercy but given a forever future in the bloodline of Jesus.

Hurting People Hurt People. – Divorce #2

Fast Forward – To Today.  I am a Pioneer, I am a Trailblazer.  I do not have a lineage of praying forefathers behind me that I can tell – BUT I am one praying MAMA who believes that God

CAN and WILL

Show love to a thousand generations of those who love Him and keep His commandments.  I am not one who has kept His commandments of marriage well – but I am a woman who has Godly Sorrow and has repented of much sin.

Both of my children married young, both of them are blessed and happy.  Perfect – NO but they have something in their marriages that I did not have.  What?   I truly do not know but it is there and it is different.  They are different.  And I thank God that they are. They are the 1st of a thousand generations before me that have a “heritage of blessing”.