This Picture is Worth a Thousand Emotions

 I sent a facebook message today to Ernesto, the director of the orphanage that we went to help.  On his facebook I saw this photo of his assistant, Josua and myself.  I have never seen this photo before.

I look so happy.  I was happy and sad, this is taken at the airport in Maputo, Mozambique the day we flew home.  There were tears and smiles.  I want to go back.

Today is the day I received an email that the money has been delivered to Lima.  He wrote me that I had changed his life forever with the money.  I could not have sent the money without help.  It took me 6 months to ask for help.

To give or to receive – which is harder for you?

Receiving help is hard for me, even asking for help to help someone else is hard for me.

My first husband called me “Vehemently Independent”

Websters Says this about Vehement:

marked by forceful energy : powerful

a : intensely emotional : impassioned, fervid

b (1) : deeply felt  (2) : forcibly expressed

c : bitterly antagonistic

Now – don’t get mad at him for saying that about me because it is true.

For those of you who know me – you know this is true.

Excuse me…. was true.

But, God is changing me.  Daily.

You can see the woman in that photo is happy and does not look BITTER, or ANTAGONISTIC, or INTENSELY EMOTIONAL.

I look happy.  I am happy.

We all have a past.  It is behind us.  The future is in front of us and we chose to remain the same or change.

To become BETTER or BITTER.

Boy, I thank God I  found that photo – it reminds me that I’m the NEW me and not the old me.