The Difference a Dollar Makes

Met a friend for coffee, she got a phone call and had to run out for a bit so she laid a $10. bill on the counter and took her call.  The Barista hands me two coffee cups and $2.58 in change.  I stood there not knowing what to do with the change.  How much do I tip? Do I tip any of her money?  Oh, no, what do I do? So I dropped the $.58 in the tip jar and added to it a dollar of my own and then gave my friend back her two bucks.   I had caused myself stress over $2.00.

When people invite me to dinner and I squabble about the check, or simply tell them I have other plans because I don’t really have enough money in my budget for a splurge….. I avoid the situation because I don’t think I have enough money.  And I’m horrified if someone spends money on me.

The Bible says that the root of all evil is the love of money.  Note that it is the “love of” not the money itself.  Well, I think there is a root of evil in the fear of money, or fear of lack of money.

Poverty mentallity – a curse.

I have been asking God to deal with this and deliver me from it for a long time.  He is by this Africa trip, I have been given money and it is very humbling for me.   If I want to go, which I do, I must accept help.  He has also been dealing with me about my budget, there needs to be more control and dominion over what He has placed under my authority.

Instead of the feeling of being “out of control” I need to have control.  This is something I CAN change.

What is the serenity prayer ?

The is alot of truth to this prayer – but let me put a disclaimer here that it is not found in the Bible, at least not by me.  If it’s in there, let me know !!  This prayer does not give God any glory and God needs to be the one to give us the “WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE”.

The end of the story is that I went to a thrift store and found a used purse that is the perfect carry on bag. I have been searching for months but did not want to spend a large amount of money.  This bag was $3.00 I was so happy !!!

Freaking out over $2. one day and being over joyed by $3. the next – I need therapy!