The Back of the Class

Speaking of the Big Rock Rd Bible Study group,  I used to tell them that I was “at the back of the class” because I had divorced the ordained minister who then went back to the wife he left to marry me – yikes !  And had married a man who loved me for the vibrance of my spirit but had already grown weary of my complicated mind ! Boy did I have issues !

The year was 2005 and it was this time in my life that I questioned everything, I even called a Jewish Rabbi to discuss his beliefs to see where we were different and where we were the same.  I think this searching time brought me closer to the Lord and He watched me “make sure” of what I believed.

Anyway – I got this picture in a friend’s blog and it created some deep feelings in me that took me back to that time in my life – this image was how my life was then.  So hard yet so fragile.  For the women who know me from then I bet you are shaking your head in agreement. To hear me then and to hear me now is such a switch.

I don’t know where the 2nd separation fits in to all “this” of my life but there’s not a 2nd divorce yet.  That hard boiled egg is gone and this softy just cannot get a clear answer from God on this issue.  And if I don’t have a clear yes or a clear no – my answer is WAIT.

In the meantime, I’ll blog about everything I’m learning to keep a record of this path to wholeness.

2 years ago – I mustered up my courage and went to an outdoor church service.  I was “sneaking” away so no one would stop me afterwards and yet someone did catch me. You know who you are.  You said to me “Before you got to the service I noticed broken glass under the chair you sat in. The Lord told me that the person who sat in that chair was broken but would be made whole.”

Thank you dear friend – prophetic words, He is making me whole.