Remind Me Who I Am

This is my first attempt at words of significance in several months.  I press publish hesitantly but here it is for your review.

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The divorce is final.  People keep asking me

“Don’t you feel relieved?”

I don’t feel anything. Which is strange for me because I am a “feeling” type person.  I get inspiration to write and then I lack the confidence to publish it here.  Nothing seems inspiring enough to share.  As if being divorced for this second time has “disqualified” me for anything of purpose.

HOLD ON A MINUTE….

These feelings or lack thereof must be outside pressure because at the same time I struggle financially, there’s several hundred dollars in my Africa account.  Money collected from YOU to help me fulfill my dreams and promises to my friends in Mozambique.  The Bibles are ordered, waiting for arrival… the bank info filled out to wire money to

Brother Lima for his driver’s license class.   All will be complete once the Bibles come in and shipped then I will know how much more I can send to Lima. (Shown here far right)

At the same time I get divorced, a close friend who I’ve been praying for and talking to has reconciled their marriage and they are working together better than before.  You see, I’m not finished.  God is not finished with me either.   My thoughts might be a little crowded right now but that does not mean I am finished.

The morning after court a message popped up on my work computer calendar.

“Read This”

I had written myself a pep talk weeks ago and then forgotten about it.  It was needed more than I realized and I was able to let go and cry, healing tears.

Remember my blog about the woman at the well?  She had been  married several times and was currently living with a man she was not married to.  Jesus shared a moment with her that changed her life forever and not only that, she went into her village and told everyone about Jesus and they listened to her.

I’m going to attach a song here because it was in my pep talk, actually my note says it was playing while I was typing the pep talk to myself.  It is a critical song for me at this point in my life.  I hope it ministers to you.

“Remind Me Who I Am”

When I lose my way, And I forget my name, Remind me who I am. In the mirror all I see, Is who I don’t wanna be, Remind me who I am.

In the loneliest places, When I can’t remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to You, Who I am to You. Tell me lest I forget who I am to You, That I belong to You. To You.

When my heart is like a stone, And I’m running far from home, Remind me who I am. When I can’t receive Your love, Afraid I’ll never be enough, Remind me who I am. If I’m Your beloved, Can You help me believe it.

I’m the one you love, I’m the one you love, That will be enough, I’m the one you love.

Tell me once again who I am to You. Who I am to You. Tell me lest I forget who I am to You, That I belong to You, oh.