Blind Ambition

Imagine my surprise when a preacher I’d never heard before said….If you still have obstacles in your life and you have prayed for deliverance for everything you can think of………think of Ambition.

Websters says:  Ambition is : a particular goal or aim : something that a person hopes to do or achieve : a desire to be successful, powerful, or famous

What if a person does not have a “particular goal or aim”….what if they don’t know what they want, they are just driven to succeed and if they don’t know what success is then they will never know if they attain it?

Wow, this could turn into a large circle that never ends………

Which is exactly what vain or blind ambition does. This is me.

So, the Holy Spirit being as persistent as He is began to put puzzle pieces together for me on this. Thursday I heard the sermon and started chewing and praying.  Then Sunday morning a friend stopped me and our conversation led to the following collaboration of thought….

“If we don’t know THE answer

We will search for an answer.

If we don’t find an answer

We will create an answer

Never getting THE answer from God”

Need an example?  Let’s use Sarah (Genesis chapter 16 continuing until this very day).  Sarah and her husband, had been promised a son by God but Sarah got impatient.  To her defense she did not mean to disobey God she simply made a “rational decision” that her maidservant was young and that God must mean that they would get a son from her husband having sex with the maidservant.  Sarah regretted this decision as her husband grew to love the boy.  Her jealousy grew and, of course, this was not God’s plan so it caused generational grief that is fought out in bloodshed to this very day.  She had her son, Isaac, later but the disobedience had been done and there was no taking it back.

I use this example because she used her MIND and her FEELINGS to make the decision – and this is a hard blog to write.

I am an intellectual and I use my mind for everything – and my decision making skills – S T I N K !!  Waiting to hear from God can seem like a never ending assignment.   I am the chief sinner of all by not being able to wait.

Waiting is a hard lesson to learn.  I hope you are better at it than I am.  I have prayed to the Lord for deliverance from this sin of vanity and to only have ambition for things that He has birthed in me to do or say.  But I am at step one – willing to blog about it is a battle itself.